Love Unconditional

In Response to my previous poem, "Blind" / "Their Inner Circle"

You pursue me relentlessly
so I can love unconditionally
all those around me
even though enemy they might be.
In Christ I have the victory
so none can harm me beyond repair.
In Jesus I dare
to reach out and up
from my overflowing cup
I share every blessing
ever confessing
Jesus is king - let freedom ring
as only it can in Truth.
His Truth.
And what is God's Truth?
John 3:16
This hope I've seen
not just in dreams
but up close and personal, in reality.
From my hometown city
to the Secret Life of Walter Mitty
Every adventure I've had
every good and every bad
Christ is here.
I don't need drugs or a beer
to feel good or escape reality
Because Jesus is my sanity.
I live with morality
to honor Christ and all He's done
because from Him my joy has come.
I need nothing else.
No person or wealth
I only ask for perfect health
so I can serve You faithfully with everything:
my heart, soul, mind, and strength
no matter my life's length.
And the people who cross my path...
I won't be daft
enough to expect perfection,
just gentle divine correction
as we grow in holiness and Christ-likeness
reaching from glory to glory and leaving the mess
of sin behind.
I have been wined and dined
by the finest Gent alive
and with Jesus by my side
all things are possible:
Including Love.
So I will love all and love well
and make sure to tell
those I love just why I love
because of our God above
who came to mortal earth
despite His eternal worth.
He died on a tree upon Calvary
in my place so I can live free
without the need for man's approval
or pursuit.
My Father's pursuit is enough
so I can love every rough
edge and hardened personality
of any friend or foe
since I'm filled head to toe
with Jesus.
Holy Spirit come abide
I will be Your precious bride
and do all You call me to
because in You I am new.
Make me new, Lord,
every day as I get to know You more.
Lay aside the old and mold my core
for Your Holy Purpose
whether that's the circus or full-time ministry
wherever I am just open my eyes to see
Your Children
and love them in a way this world can't.
As I finish my rant let me say once more
I will not keep score
of who returns what favor,
rather I will savor
the knowledge of Christ my Savior
and let my Creator love through me.
Yes I will love YOU
No matter what you do.


09/14/16

Blind / Their Inner Circle

I see their pain.
They don't think I do so they feign
living the dream
so it would seem
they don't know
just how far I would go
to give of myself,
my wealth,
anything for their wholeness or health.
But they never come to me.
They don't see
how they have each other
so I simply become another
possibility they could go to
but never actually do.
I become unfulfilled potential;
I mean do I really need credentials
to do what I love, which is loving people?!
Must I become a counselor to become a friend?
One worth their time to lend
an ear to hear
every worry and fear
they hold most dear
inside themselves?

Yet I remain underwhelmed
by their efforts to seek me out
and I only ever hear about
their lives, rather than investing into their lives.
How long will I live with one foot inside their circle,
the other waiting for a miracle:
the words of an invitation,
oh what elation
to know they know what I can be:
A shoulder to cry on,
a companion until dawn,
if only they would act upon
my faithful presence in their lives.
I'm not perfect,
but I've come a long way
in learning to stay
by their side each and every day.
Now every glance, every touch,
every smile I make,
only love is in its wake
Every action I do
It's all screaming, "I'M HERE FOR YOU!"
I'm here for you.

I know I lack candor
when using words to express my affection,
especially face to face,
so this poem is my confession
that I've been hurt by being left outside
Now I've been the one whose lied
about being fine when y'all are blind
to how your actions affect my feelings
and I find myself kneeling,
praying and pleading,
for the Lord to give me an outlet for my compassion
for someone who will come to me
and let me see
every tear that falls
without hiding behind a wall.
Someone to let me hold them through the night,
to stand beside them in every emotional fight.
Is there anyone out there? To let me care?
Because I'm out of strength
to fight being kept at arm's length.
This inner circle I'm outside of...
If I need someone, consider it done,
they are there.
But I need a two-way street,
a friend to meet me halfway.
What more can I say?

C.S. Lewis wrote about the Inner Circle,
and I think he's right.
But this circle in my sight
brings insecurities to light
and takes quite the bite
out of my confidence and self-worth,
unearthing my deep desire
to simply Love. On. People.
My attempts have been more than feeble
but still rejected and cast aside
so long as I abide outside
Their Inner Circle.



09/12/16