Dedicated to my mom who is in a similar position as me right now. I think both our hearts would cry out these words:
All these options laid out before me:
What's good? What's better?
I have no clarity.
My vision is clouded and murky;
I know who I am but where should I be?
Where should I live out my calling to be free?
Free in Christ unhindered by sin,
(oh) but I'm surrounded by this deafening din
and I cannot hear Your still, small voice.
Father, help me with my choice;
Give me wisdom and discernment,
for I know Jesus went
wherever He was sent
and I desire to do the same
always glorifying Your name,
whether I'm leading children's games
or rapidly growing in fame,
preaching across the country.
What's good? What's better?
I've decided it doesn't matter.
So long as I live to obey
following the one true way
I will have neither good
nor better but the best.
This is how I want the rest
of my life to play out
even in seasons of spiritual drought.
The time to decide is soon.
But even now I will tune
the melody my life sings
to carry me on eagle's wings
as I live to serve You every moment
remembering how the curtain rent
as You took Your last breath on Earth
to show me how much I'm worth.
I was a slave in chains
blinded by pursuit of selfish gain
and serving fruitless idols,
but You did not stand idly by.
Rather, You came from heaven to die:
To purchase my freedom
with every drop of Your priceless blood
as You hung on a tree
all because of Your concern for me.
"For Freedom Christ has set us free."
Your own Word says so,
therefore I will go. I will simply. Go.
I will not shackle myself in
with worry of where I'll be livin'.
I choose freedom here and now
as I choose every day to bow
no matter where I am or what job I obtain.
I will stay sane
if I hold to this one aim:
to Know You Jesus, and Make You Known.
So help me make my choice,
help me cut out the noise,
but remind me You've already given me life,
and You care more about my faithfulness as Your wife
than my job title.
It will be because of my pursuit after You,
and not my choosing of a certain career,
that I will delight in the words:
"Well done, Good and Faithful Servant.
Well Done."
06/29/16
