The Schizophrenic Christian

I feel schizophrenic.
It's like an epidemic,
spreading to so many Christians
turning our faith into fiction.
We cry out to God in need,
but when He begins to lead
our free will restrains
and our prayers go in vain
as we assume control once again
thinking we though mortal men
can live our lives how we please
ignoring the God who sees
everything.

Can this end?
Can a cure truly mend
our souls and wills to lay them bare
before God's throne if we so dare
yet able to approach because of Grace
though I choose to fall flat on my face
because I know I screw up
and here I am before the One who fills my cup
with blessings amounting to overflow.
How can I still prioritize God so low?

I am nothing.
I am a sinner.
He is Holy.
He is Everything.

01/02/15

Healing of Hatred

A friend's poem on relationship troubles (11/24/14):

I pray for a miracle to bring healing

And for some relationship spring cleaning

We know Your promises are worth believing

But on this earth they seem so deceiving

I pray for change in both their hearts

And for perspective on her own part

That You would mend the broken art

That has been destroyed by angrily thrown darts

My response:

But now I thank thee Lord above,

for mending my torn soul with your love,

able to heal every inflicted wound,

ever so closely to hatred tuned.

I feel the dark cloak of my heart,

fallen away in all not part,

and I know it’s due

only because of You.

So though close quarters may be hard,

I know there will not be a single shard,

left strewn of my soul,

because You oh Lord are now in control.

I give you my all of my life,

to be Your beloved wife,

and in this beautiful romance
through life we will dance.

02 Jan. 2015